From the second you think about having a baby it is scary. There are so many things that can go wrong and in the end everyone wants a healthy baby. Then you get pregnant and the waiting for the first appointment to confirm the pregnancy is the worst, since they usually don't see you until you are 8-10 weeks along. And if you are like me I peed on a stick the first chance I got and found out we were pregnant at around 3 weeks 5 days. That is a long time to wait!! Then you get the first ultrasound and hopefully get the news the baby is healthy with a strong heartbeat and they say we will see you in 4 weeks. What are you serious, 4 more weeks! The waiting in between appointments is hard, but you have to just believe in your body and know the baby is healthy. Easier said than done, trust me! Then you hit 20 weeks and they do the big anatomy scan to make sure the baby is growing and all his/her organs look healthy. It is frightening I tell you.
The worrying continues until birth and you hear that first cry. Though it doesn't end there. Being a mother is full of constant worrying I think. My point is, there is always something to worry about and being pregnant is a scary, but beautiful miracle. I still look at my daughter with amazement as to how we made her and she grew inside of me. It is truly a blessing and unbelievable.
The thing that gets me through the scariness is knowing that God will never give us more than we can handle and we will always be surrounded by amazing friends and family. I truly believe this and I also believe everything happens for a reason. Sometimes it is hard to see that initially and understand why but behind it all there is a reason.
Anyways...on to our ultrasound today.
We had our repeat ultrasound today to get pictures of little man's heart. He was laying funny last time and the tech couldn't see to get the right pictures. He was still laying with his feet above his head and breech, making things more difficult.
The first thing I asked was to confirm it was a boy due to our shocking news last time we had the ultrasound. She confirmed he was a he and showed us again. I think my husband now believes he is a he and we will be expecting a boy :). I am glad to have confirmed it again. Now I can feel more comfortable about buying boy things and really getting things going in his nursery.
The ultrasound took about 45 minutes just to get what we needed for his heart. She also did a quick growth scan to make sure he was measuring well. We were almost done and she said there was a little concern. On one of the views it looked as though there was a small hole in his heart. She said she wasn't 100% if it was a hole or a shadow due to how he was laying. Either way that is not something you want to hear. She said she wanted to be safe and get us scheduled with high risk so we can have an echo done.
We are trying not to stress ourselves out, because lets be honest, we don't know for certain and there is nothing we can do right now anyways. So we will wait for high risk to call us and schedule the echo and pray for the best. It sure is a lot easier said than done when the tech tells you your child could have a hole in his heart.
Please keep us in your thoughts! Hopefully we will get this scheduled soon, though they said it could take up to a week to hear back.
I know it has been awhile since I have done a full pregnancy update. I will post an update for weeks 20-25 on the blog this weekend. For now here is a sneak peak at a few of the things we have purchased for the nursery.